Just like I have mentioned in one of the previous posts, in this post too, I am short of pictures. When I open my gallery to check the AGRA pictures, I can’t believe that I don’t have enough good pictures to upload. Taking pictures is something I love and it’s also one of the reasons I had issues in my previous relationship. Sounds complex ain’t it? When was life simple anyway? Keeping my private life aside, I want to talk about certain emotions I have been dealing with since a couple of days. Not only ’cause writing it down here in the blog which is more like my diary would make me feel better but also I am sure there are a bunch of people out there who must be going through the same emotions as I am.
I came to Bangalore, the Silicon Valley as it’s called, 6 years back to pursue my career in the Software Industry. I refused the offer of joining my college as a professor after graduation and went against my parents so as to be able to live on my own terms in an alien city. Being an extremely introvert person and a pampered child, I didn’t even have the basic experiences such as that of going to the grocery store. The whole idea of living alone was very dissimilar and scary to me. And it was a new city where people didn’t speak the languages I was familiar with. More importantly, I belong to a very small city. I didn’t really know whom to approach and how to get a job. There were times I would just stay in my room and cry. Now when I am writing about it, I feel a stroke of emotions hitting me all at once. My parents never really wanted me to be here in Bangalore and hence always kept asking me to be back in Assam. All I wanted was to be able to support myself and see what the world has to offer. There were times I just couldn’t do it, get up and motivate myself enough to be able to get a job. At that point in my life, having a job is all that mattered to me. Those were the times I wish they would have just said: “You can do it.”
Now, after 6 years of being in this city and having a decent job which is good enough to pay my bills, I find myself aiming for another goal again. Every day I struggle to motivate myself to be able to go and give my best at work. That’s the job for which I worked really hard. I have come to the realization that what mattered the most to me when I was in my 20’s is not really important to me now. Next year I am going to be 30 years old and I see myself still dreaming high. Ideally, this is the age where you ‘SETTLE DOWN’, don’t you? Is it ’cause people change with time or is it ’cause whatever I dream of doing now was somewhere at the back of my head while I was preparing to go to college. Maybe if I would have listened to my heart then, I would have been able to ‘SETTLE DOWN’ now. But the whole irony is, not only am I alone in this room while I write this post, but also I am alone in my life as the people who matter to me never really figured out what I want from life! I have a lot of people whom I call ‘FRIENDS’ and they support me a lot but then ‘THE PEOPLE who matter most’ are not in a position to understand the anxieties I am going through in my life. Or maybe it’s just a mid-life crisis that I am facing. All I ever wanted was a “Go for it!”
It’s really hard to live a life where you feel alone being in the company of people. It’s strange, in fact! But I would also like to believe that life is just once. Your wishes, desires and fantasies become void after you leave this world. Whatever you wish to do, be prepared to take the path alone. If you’re lucky, you’d have somebody by your side but if you’re not, that should never stop you from doing what you love. The reason? Again, life’s just once. There will be times when you won’t be able to get up to even wipe your own tears, but trust me, one day everything will be worth it. I don’t expect anybody to understand my goals nor am I the one who wants to prove them all wrong! I have my goals for myself and my happiness. They are personal to me. After all, happiness is all that matters, isn’t it? Now, again, you might not be able to achieve what you wanted to, but if you tried really hard, you know that you are leading a life with no regrets! I don’t blame anybody for not understanding my desires and wishes ’cause they can’t see what I can see nor do they dream what I dream. It’s fair till I have my own company and the desire to work towards my goal every day! After all, it’s about ‘SHOWING UP EVERY DAY WITHOUT FAIL!’
Coming to the travel post here, I have always wanted to visit the Taj Mahal in Agra. I am sure the history books are to be blamed. Taj Mahal means ‘Crown of the Palace’ and was built by the Mughal emperor, Shah Jahan (reigned from 1628 to 1658), to house the tomb of his favorite wife, Mumtaz Mahal. It surprises me how back in the day love was so priceless. Look at us now! Anyway, if you’re in Delhi, you have multiple Tours and Travels that can take you to this gem of a place. Agra is a historical city in the state of Uttar Pradesh and is around 200 kms from Delhi( 3 hours by bus via the TAJ EXPRESS/ YAMUNA EXPRESS HIGHWAY). The entry fee is only around INR 50/= (for INDIAN RESIDENTS). There is also the Agra Fort in Agra which you can visit. It is a UNESCO WORLD HERITAGE and it used to be the main residence of the emperors of the Mughal Dynasty. On the way back home you can indulge yourself in Agra’s special sweet dish called PETHA made of Bottle Gourd. I went on a one- day trip to Agra to see the Taj Mahal basically. And the Agra Fort was complimentary for me as part of the trip. Since the tour was not only destined to Agra but was planned for AGRA- MATHURA- VRINDAVAN- DELHI and I being least interested in visiting all the other places, I got myself a return ticket to Delhi from the Agra Bus Station. Overall, the experience was nice. And the best time to visit Agra is around January- March and later in the year around October- December due to the temperature.
I am putting a few reference links for your ease and I hope this helps:-
I hope most of you can relate to today’s post and find it motivating in some way. Also, I hope you can refer to this post if you’re traveling to Agra. Until we speak again, ‘KEEP SHOWING UP’.
~ Stylishly Yours,