NO ROOM FOR THE BLUES.
Basically I knew what I wanted to write in this post but just that after having a look at SMALLTOWNBLOGGER ‘s stories the night before, my decision grew stronger. I was being a little skeptical in the beginning as it is going to be a dark one. DARKER for a handful few. With this post, I want to declare that I AM BACK! Not to anyone but myself. My inner self with whom I have been struggling with for some time. For quiet some time. Shall we say hello, BLUES?
I had just started getting PAID assignments, well, a good amount of PAID assignments were in hand. Now, put a little stress on PAID ‘cause all of us (bloggers) know how much do the brands exploit us in the name of collaboration! The good brands which definitely can afford a good budget. The good brands who have enough money to spend on a proper marketing. But then “OH! YOU NEED TO PROVE YOURSELF FIRST RIGHT?” things and we tend to take up such assignments with just the clothes and at times you don’t even get the clothes! I was happy with the couple of PAID assignments as mentioned and was all geared up for some creative ideas and themes. It also included a lookbook for a designer website and my happiness seemed no bound.
Then, in the month of JUNE, 2017, I met with this accident which left me bed ridden for almost 2 months. Post that, it made me scarface and took away all my confidence. Forget about facing the camera, the bare minimum confidence to come in public was gone. And the PAID assignments you tell me? Oh! All gone. Who won’t be depressed? May not be you. But we aren’t the same person, are we? And I am not such a strong human. The face which I was once contended about is not the same anymore. And you couldn’t handle a pimple?
No engagement in the virtual world won’t lead you anywhere! These words proved itself true. One fine morning, what I see is people who have started blogging around the same time as me have crossed a double digit ‘K’ with many new exciting works and projects. I mean obviously, the more you keep everybody engaged the more And there I was, fighting with my blues. With no new work and no new idea. It’s not that I didn’t try thinking of some theme- based work, kind of work which I really enjoy, but I couldn’t get over it. Felt like all the ideas were gone. ART was gone. Only thing remained were BLUES.
Coming to the music part, these 2 months I didn’t even try opening my mouth and hum a little ‘cause I was totally in a darker world, all bothered and worried. BLUES surrounded me. Blues had engulfed me. And then I was scared to even try singing as I thought I must have lost my singing voice due to negligence and lack of practice for so long. BLUES. I was losing my interest and the audience too at the same time. Losing the interest for curating creative things and making music- which are LIFE for me. And losing the audience which I have built over the past year with my hard work. Now, time and again I keep mentioning about the hard work! Photography and blogging is easy, yes, I agree. But not if you want to be pro at it. At least nowadays I have come to terms how easy things are. I hope you know what I mean. But it’s not easy if you really want to have a good outcome! Common people usually think of blogging and photography as second to none but is it the same?
With the same count on my gram and no exciting work in hand, I finally make up my mind to continue my work! Why did I start blogging at first? I didn’t even know the A of blogging. I was majorly influenced by some really creative photography and the works of some poetic philosophers. I wanted to portray my ideas not just by styling a shirt but making a story around the shirt. Even though the brands and PR Companies still ask me about my follower count and reject my profile later, I am not going to stop. I am going to create stories because that’s what I love doing! Not always making myself look beautiful but looking for positivity in garbage too! Why was I even trying to impress the plastic crowd? The crowd who appreciates only a smiling face and not a post worth an important message(I have checked my own grid to be sure of this)! Nope, I am going to write because I love to. I am going to create ART because it’s beautiful!
To all the beautiful girls reading this story, you can get up no matter what! It’s only you who can overcome your blues and fight with the negativity. No matter how black are the clouds, there will always be a bright tomorrow awaiting you! The blues might not be in the form of an accident leaving scar but you know you can fight anything. The world belongs to you!
NO ROOM FOR THE BLUES. NOT ANYMORE.
♣ CREDITS ♣
CREATIVE DIRECTION & STYLING | SHIVANI BORUAH
PHOTOGRAPHY & EDITING | SAIKAT DAS
CONCEPT | NOT SPONSORED. Featuring OPI NAIL COLOUR (now available in India) having the name [no room for the blues] and taking inspiration from their ICELAND FALL/WINTER STORY. A story depicting a fight with one’s BLUES.
OUTFIT | Vietnamese traditional dress courtesy CHAYA GOGOI
LOCATION | BTM aka MADIWALA Lake in Bangalore, India
Also, one thing that I would like to share with you is that I am going to write as a guest writer for a city- based paper. Stay tuned! I hope you liked this editorial story. Here’s another favourite editorial post of mine, hope you’ve checked it.
~ Stylishly Yours,